Desire

What
are
we
doing
today ?

What
are
you
doing
today ?

Where is that good old desire...

Why do people say that life is unfair, what gives them that idea?
People have said that life is a strange thing, now that is of course true, but why?
Why is life strange? why is desire for fairness strange or weird?

Isn't it weird that trees grow up instead of out?
And that beaches are really just fish pooh?


Isn't it weird that some trees grow flowers and some don't?
Or why they do at all... And why do most plants grow flowers?


Why don't we ever ponder these things? Sure, we know plants make flowers so bees come, but which came first the plant or the bee? Which plant suddenly decided to make flowers, and which bee became the first to inspect a flower for food? When did that food start to be produced for the bees?


I'm just saying, sure we know the science of these things, we know how they work. Great, so now we can use them, but knowing what something does never really truly explains it's own existence. Why is it here? The tree, for example is here to, well, be here, it has no real purpose, so why does it want to keep living? What gives it a desire to live that makes it fight off viruses and other things, or develop thorns over centuries? Does it feel pain? If not, why? If it does, that's terrible.

So where does desire come from?

No matter how much we may believe in evolution or not, there is no place in it for the creation of desire, neither the desire for food, or the desire for sleep, or the desire of anything, even the desire for life. We must remember that the desire to stay alive must have been present in the very first cell, otherwise it would not stay alive. To desire to keep on living can't be created by evolution. The cell wanting to stay alive would be a decision of conciousness, that first cell would not feel concious, nor would it have a brain to even think about desire. Seeing that pain is the response of our bodies to protect itself, which is in itself a desire, it is impossible to create. It is impossible for pain to exist, yet it does. A created machine can't have desire to keep itself from damage unless it is pre-programed to do it. and it can never create that because it has no ability to rationalize or think. The desire of self preservation is impossible to be self-created. Even a little program in a cell (the very beginnings of thought) can't be created because it would be useless for a long time before it did anything at all, and evolution is the slow advance by small steps, but all the steps have to be immediately useful each step... to that "yes or no" mechanism, for the beginnings of thought, would always be weeded out. Remember that it is a step by step thing, not a number of steps by a number of steps. so a thinking machine couldn't be created, only a thinking part, needing the rest of the machine to fully operate. Which means that the thinking part would be weeded out. Now, not only is it impossible to start wanting to live, but it is also impsooible to get a "brain" to even think about wanting to live.

What i'm trying to say is that desire to live can't be created by a being, a being can't be mutated to be able to desire anything, and that deisre really should not exist.
It all comes down to, what came before such and such. if desire is not created by us, or our so called ancestors, then where did it come from. The idea of desire is simple to us thinking beings, but try coming up with desire without the ability to think.

So where does desire come from?
Even the most simplest of desires?

Funny how a flower looks so pretty,


I'm sorry if you got lost in this, when I was working on it last night
half of it got deleted, so I had to try and tie my arguments back together with very little time on my hands.


Perhaps a weird thing like intelligence.

purpose

It seems like everyone reefers back to last year for some reason to bring out the new year. The funny thing is that I'm going to do it as well and even though everyone does I will too.

Last year took me through a lot, and half of that stuff was interesting. The other half was not worth anything. It seems that my life is split into three areas. sin, repentance and becoming right with God again. That's what last year was, just circle after circle of that, again and again. So, I'm going to say that last year was a year full or regret, tears, a few times of great joy, and monotony. There was also summer camp which was great.

Yes that was last year.

So why go on? I don't really expect anything very exciting to happen. so why go on?
I'm saved right. so I'm all good if something terrible happens to me and I die. To see God I need to die. Right?

So what keeps us all going?

I think other then the commandment for us to love others and live for God until our time comes there is no reason. Which kind of makes sense when there are so many people working hard to not think about the futility of their work or hobbies... And those that don't find something to keep their minds off it find that they are crazy or depressed. now these are big generalizations and they will stay like that because of course there are exceptions...
The only thing that keeps us going is the love of Jesus both for us and us for him.

I guess that's why we need to start our days and keep our focus on him all the time or we might get caught.

life love christ-mass

This season seems to be such a cop-out, I don't even want to know how it got like this, but tomorrow Canadians are supposed to spend 2 billion dollars and 7.5 million of them will be shopping...

Time, doesn't anyone have the time right now? Why do we spend our days building cash flow and getting stuff? Don't we have anything else better to do?

But wait isn't life all about getting stuff and having fun? Isn't the pursuit of happiness the gift of God, to us, for our pleasure, and were supposed to just have fun.

I hate this season and I love it at the same time.... don't you?


So, with that Merry Christ-mass
lets keep it like that, and really focus on the meaning.

Making sense of Hell and Gods 'judgment'.

When faced with Eternity what do you do?
I found myself just thinking about hell today, not only because we were covering it in class but because, it's just something I spend time to think about. I'm going to try and show how God in the Christian sense can be thought of as good, yet still have people going to Hell. I find it interesting when people talk about God being bad because he sends people to Hell. Have they ever thought about it for a long time? have they really even entertained the thought? or is it some push over reason to say no to God, any Christians who are pushy bigots 7/8Th's of the time. But we need to look at this question, is God good? Does he send us to Hell? The worlds view of hell is a fiery vast place where your burned forever in torment. The thing to remember here is that throughout the bible fire is used as a symbol for judgment. Most people when talking about Hell view it as a place where people are sent to be punished for their wrong deeds, or are forced to go. The Christian view that I understand is that we are not forced to go at all, and if there is any choosing of where were going, it's up to us. Let us presume the teachings of the bible, God is purely good, and only good, he can not tolerate evil in the least. Lets take me, i've sinned, and I still view myself as a good person, but God can't be with me. If I walk around saying I hate Gordon, he's an ass, do you think gordon will want to be my friend? No of course not, and it's the same with me, even if God views me as a fairly good person, i'm still going around half the time saying I hate God (this is why we try to sin less so we say I HATE God less) and his desire for me to be perfect, but, I do have the ability to be perfect. Yet, I'm not perfect. However God will forgive all that, isn't it interesting. There is only one unforgivable sin, and that is blaspheming against the spirit. Or in normal language, not accepting God (which includes Jesus[but how can you acknowledge someone if you have never heard of him? God judges us on our knowledge of him, He is in nature too.]) for who he is... Hell is separation from God, and that is only because we reject him. So he honors our choice and lets us leave him. Of course I believe this is the absolute worst thing that there ever could be, but to those who don't like God, it's not so bad right. It is after all only getting what we want right? Some people believe that God eventually turns around and accepts everyone. well I don't think this is right, manly because it's not giving the people what they want, which is what God promised us. Let us suppose that God loves us, now in human terms sometimes loving someone means letting them do harm to themselves. Normally this is to teach themselves a lesson and is controlled. But God is love, were not perfect at all. Gods love is pure, that means he loves us with an inconceivable amount of love which never ends, so when God gave us a choice he loved us so much as to let us actually make it. Not just make it and then have Him turn around and stop us from choosing the "wrong" one. He loves us so much as to respect our choice even if it means our destruction or painful death in the dessert or by flames or anything. He promised to give us a choice and he will carry our choice out for us. But don't just think that, God loves us, and so to send us away to hell is probably harder on him then us seeing that he knows everything about us and loves us. Isn't that something crazy?
But, truly amazing!
Perhaps I sound a little lovy dovy, perfect fuzziness, cute God, but I am deathly scared of Hell. I'm just trying to explain this so God is seen as loving, not some tyrant, but who's going to say to God, you can't do ____ to me! What right do we have to say that? And, what less do we deserve but Hell.
God's one thing for us is to love him, recognize his presence, and to become a friend... more then a friend, a lover, and being who is to join in perfect unity and companionship forever.