songs are more then poetry, so much more.

You know what amazes me, the way a lot of bands that would be regarded as being bad or indecent come out with some really amazing things.  One of the best examples of this to me right now is Evanescence, they really come out with thought provoking and challenging lyrics for a lot of their songs.

One good example of this is the song which deals with the guilt of blaming yourself for the pain of separation for a loved one.  It is amazing how artists can be so frank with feelings and emotions.  Songs really can open the door into the workings or a human mind and how we work through things, both the right and wrong ways.

"Lacrymosa"

Out on your own,
Cold and alone again.
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?

Blame it on me,
Set your guilt free.
Nothing can hold you back now.

Now that you're gone,
I feel like myself again.
Grieving the things I can't repair and willing...

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

I can't change who I am.
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough.

And you can blame it on me,
Just set your guilt free, honey.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

I often find it scary how people can let go of things, and others they can't.  It has been often recorded that a couple who have lived together for most of their lives will sometimes die within a few weeks of each other, the human heart dies along with the one it loves.  A human is more then blood and flesh, we are connected on a deeper way than anything else in this universe, a way that nothing can ever compare too.  In thinking this, who can ever tell how much pain a person goes through when their lover has lost their love for them and they are left alone for years, tormented, living yet dead at the same time.

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Thailand short report

Well It has been a very long time since I have said anything, you might have just assumed that I had fallen off the side of the planet...

Well if the world was flat then you would have been correct.

Yes I was on the dark side of the planet, the crazy side, the side that just seems to be upside down in many aspects of all and everything...  Interested?

Well in a short, fast 15 seconds, I went Prayer walking in Laos, spent a day in the shady border of Thailand and Burma, taught English to children, visited many missionary's, went to Bangkok, the beach and spent a many number of hours cramped between awesome Asians.  Yah there was a lot of time spent in traffic, mostly because the max speed you can go on the roads is about 60 (mostly because either the roads are too curvy or I don't know), and there was a lot of distance between all the places that we went to.

We did five weeks of stuff in three, but it was awesome.

After all that the group leaders left for home and the rest of us stayed for an extra 4 weeks of vacation/heavy duty traveling.  We first stayed at the beach for a few extra days and then headed to Bangkok by plane.  After that we headed to the capitol of Cambodia for a few days, and then up to Angkor Wat, which is a wonder of the world and is really a spread out complex of temples built at different times.  From there we flew to Singapore and spent a few days there shopping but not buying because everything was fairly expensive.  From there we went into Malaysia to Kuala Lumpur and stayed for a few days, going to malls and events and buying things from both malls and markets.  Then we went back to Singapore for a few more days to await our flights back to Bangkok.  When we were in Bangkok we only had a weekend left and we spent the time hanging out in malls and shopping in Giant markets and buying lots of stuff.  After that we hopped back on planes to Canada.  It was really sweet.

So that's basically my short report on the trip.  I have plenty of stories but there are too many to tell.  Besides this is getting long already.

In all, it was awesome and very worth the time and money spent for the memories and perspective opening experiences.